I FEEL DEPRESSED THIS TIME OF YEAR BUT KNOW VERY WELL I SHOULD KEEP MY SPIRITS UP. ITS DIFFICULT TO NOT HAVE A GIFT FOR SOMEONE ESPECIALLY MY SON. HE SAYS HE UNDERSTANDS AND NOT TO WORRY ABOUT IT BUT I CAN SEE THE HURT ON HIS FACE. MY FAMILY SAYS THEY UNDERSTAND TOO BUT MY DREAM IS TO HAVE PLENTY OF PRESENTS FOR THEM. PERHAPS I WILL SOMEDAY BUT FOR NOW IT IS JUST A DREAM.